Hello?
First spring in high school,
I, Yoshioka Yuiko,
It's me.
Hello?
met a guy who has a very beautiful voice.
Yoshioka-san?
Nice to meet you.
I'm the class representative, Matsubara.
However,
that guy, Matsubara-kun, is wearing a paper bag
and I have no idea what he looks like.
In order to maintain school rules,
Hyodo the student council president,
I'm in love with Yoshioka-san.
confronted Matsubara-kun.
Around the same time Kaori-san, Matsubara-kun's childhood friend appeared,
and somehow, we grew apart.
I need to talk about the other day again, Shu.
Merry Christmas.
During winter break, will you...
go and pray with me?
It feels like a very long time,
since I laughed out aloud like this.
Koe Koi
Episode 11: Feelings to convey
Do I make you wait?
No, I'm the one who arrived too early.
Today, um...
Thank you for coming.
Don't mention it.
I feel the same.
I thought I will never see you again.
I also...
want to have a proper talk with you.
About that other time,
I always thought I shouldn't have left.
Eh?
Before I went to America,
I said something bad to Shu.
I always regret it.
Shu is a liar.
Sorry.
Hiding your face,
is the same as lying to every single person you met!
That's why,
once I came back to Japan,
the first thing I want to do is apologize.
Then,
I met Shu who is still wearing a paper bag like before.
I thought, it must be my fault.
Kaori didn't do anything wrong.
You don't have to apologize to me.
I...
I... about Kaori...
You didn't eat? - No.
Breakfast is a must.
Yoshioka-san. - You're right.
There was a lot, like Japanese, Western and Chinese...
Sorry for waiting.
Sorry.
Then... - Um.
We're heading somewhere else.
See you again, Yoshioka-san.
Let's go, Shu.
Okay.
Well, see you.
Bye.
Excuse us.
Yoshioka-san!
Yes!
Shall we try the omikuji?
Okay.
There.
Curse
Again?!
What is wrong with this? - Uh, Kaichou-san.
It's okay, you don't have to...
No.
It's okay if it's me, but for Yoshioka-san to get curse...
Please, one more try.
You'll be fine.
Well, then.
Curse
Geez, I'm really sorry.
Ah, K-Kaichou-san!
Please, let me handle this.
Shu,
what were you going to say at the shrine?
Shu?
Sorry.
It's the same as lying to every person I met.
I keep thinking about what Kaori told me that day.
I am always,
afraid that I will get hurt.
That day, too.
I ran away from Kaori.
I'm sorry.
I was...
Don't be.
It's not your fault, Kaori.
That day,
I gave Kaori an upsetting memory.
I'm really sorry.
But,
I want to change myself, now.
I...
If it's for Shu, I will...
For a cursed omikuji,
if we give it back to Kamisama, we'll be okay.
Isn't this one too thick? - Eh?
Is that so... - This should be like this, and then...
...like this.
Just like Kaori said,
I kept lying to those around me.
I thought if I do that,
it will keep myself from getting hurt.
But now,
even if I'm going to get hurt,
I want to face her up front,
and so we can comprehend each other.
There's someone like that.
...and it's not me.
That was...
...about Yoshioka-san?
I...
have loved you, Shu.
That time,
I wanted to tell you about my feelings.
I'm sorry.
The Shu I once knew,
is no longer here.
I wonder if I...
...am the one who gave pressure to the old Shu.
Kaori...
Next time,
I hope I can meet the real Shu.
By now, Hyodo-senpai is...
...doing his very best, I'm sure.
I wonder who you prayed for?
Eh?
Sorry, it's just...
It worries me that you are worry.
I'm sorry.
Yoshioka-san is...
a very nice person, so...
If I said this,
I might end up make you feel troubled.
The truth is, I thought
watching over you from afar is the best thing to do...
But,
I just have to tell you.
Yoshioka-san,
I...
am in love with you.
Um...
Ah, my bad.
I just want Yoshioka-san to keep smiling and feel happy,
but I make you feel troubled. - No, I'm not...
I don't have any intention of asking you to give me answers.
It's just...
no matter what, I...
want you to know my true feelings.
In Yoshioka-san's eyes,
what will became of me, of course I'm afraid.
But,
I don't want my feelings for Yoshioka-san to just end like this.
When that thought hits me,
I found my courage.
Now, with this,
I have conveyed my feelings to you.
Kaichou-san...
Uh, well...
For you to listen to me,
make me happy.
For you to come and meet me today,
I am thankful.
Blessing
Aki-chan,
sorry, you can go first.
Okay.
See you.
Macchan,
not yet?
Yu-chan,
I might be late,
you can go home first.
Then, see you tomorrow. - Okay.
I will also,
about my true feelings...
Um...
I have something I need to say.
Me too.
Um, Yoshioka-san?
Yes?
You told me before... right?
Eh?
The reason I am wearing a paper bag,
I should be the one who decide when to talk about it.
Do you remember that?
Yes.
I want you to listen to my story, now.
Will you?
Yes.
When I was in third year of elementary school,
my father died,
and my family was moving out.
I was really sad,
but,
I didn't want my mother to feel bad,
and so, I always forced myself to smile.
With that,
like programmed, I kept my face at default.
I could no longer put my real feelings into my expression.
Those around me started to wonder what is going on in my head.
Then, I ended up alone.
After that,
during my fourth year, in art class...
If, people can just draw whatever expression they wanted to have,
I'll draw a smile on a piece of paper bag,
and hide myself behind it.
Matsubara-kun, why are you wearing a paper bag?
When I did that,
everyone started to feel interested and talked to me.
It made me happy.
Without my own facial expression,
little by little, I can talked to someone again.
The others might mock behind my back,
but I choose to be accepted.
But then,
I met Yoshioka-san,
and you make me scared.
Eh?
Yoshioka-san,
always managed to understand what I've been hiding inside me.
That's why,
I always wondering if you see through me.
The fact that I've been running away.
The fact that...
I am a weak person, like this,
and that I'm a disappointment.
Always.
Matsubara-kun.
Matsubara-kun, you are,
rather than a weak person,
you are someone who knows about weakness.
The weakness of those people around you,
you understand them properly.
That's why, you always,
helping me.
Without me saying anything,
when I am troubled,
you always know.
I was just...
The one who look through deep inside my heart,
is you, Matsubara-kun.
Because you are like that, Matsubara-kun...
Because of that...
I fall in love with Matsubara-kun.
I want to know you better.
I want to hear your voice even more...
That's why...
That's just...
something... that I keep in my mind...
Um...
I...
Bye.
Yoshioka-san?
What I said was a confession, right?
What should I do?